It calls me to the void

Panic ensues Tears in the eyes of loved ones and friends As they struggle to find any trace of you First the posters, now all over the news If only they knew, if only they knew With any luck, they never will. My sweet darling, ripe for the kill. Enjoy your last moments of quiet and peace Before I dismember and dissect with ease I'll bury your entrails wherever I please My elation be sated by watching you bleed Tearing the flesh breaking the bone Today you should have never left home If your good lord is watching, I hope that you are blessed The life leaves your eyes, another soul at rest This is my sick board game that I love to play stalking each night and tracking each day Til the pawns in this madness become my weakened prey Only when I am killed will the killings then feign I act like I'm concerned, playing my part Donate to the family, in the search I take part The madness with in me knows you're out of harm But I get so excited when I hear that alarm You will never be found Pieces of you, missing, scattered in the ground

All this time I've been chasing an unattainable dream I realize now I will always amount to nothing Cursed at birth, to be forgotten in death not much left when were 6 feet deep no creator to meet no rebirth and some pearly gates. Just family visits to your grave In time your legend dies Nothing to remember you by Such is our condition We strive to be the best we can be in a world where money rules and the poor die in droves at their feet. Unless something changes We will all always amount to nothing.

II struggle with words, Not sure what to say My heart still remembers And though the pain fades It's hard to look forward When you're in the past Feelings fade into the dark And every time I try to start The sadness pierces with every word off my tongue A dagger through an already broken heart You had so much left to achieve So much left to prove Lives left to change with everything you do The passion you held was like a burning blaze And as these embers fall Ignite the memory of you in our veins The love we have for you will never fade We will carry your legacy through all our days But the hardest part is knowing that Now I have to remember you Longer than I've known you God damn I never thought I'd have to see you lifeless in that casket Wake up, please wake up Hopelessly lost How do we move on With a dawn becoming a new day We will push on in your honor Never let your legacy die I hope when we finally meet We can make new and better memories And never feel the sting of loss again The love we have for you will never fade We will carry your legacy through all our days But the hardest part is knowing that Now I have to remember you Longer than I've known you The love we have for you will never fade (I have to) We will carry your legacy through all our days (remember you) But the hardest part is knowing that (for longer than..) Now I have to remember you longer than I've known you (Now I have to remember you longer than I've known you) And now I have to remember you Longer than I've known you

There are just too many times that people have tried to look inside of me Wondering what I think of you and I protect you out of courtesy Too many times that I've held on when I needed to push away Afraid to say what was on my mind, afraid to say what I need to say Too many things that you said about me when I'm not around You think having the upper hand means you gotta keep putting me down But I've had too many standoffs with you It's about as much as I can stand So I'm waiting until the upper hand is mine One minute you're on top The next you're not, watch it drop Making your heart stop Just before you hit the floor One minute you're on top The next you're not, missed your shot Making your heart stop You think you've won And then it's all gone So many people like me put so much trust in all your lies So concerned with what you think to just say what we feel inside So many people like me walk on eggshells all day long All I know is that all I want is to feel like I'm not stepped on There are so many things you say that make me feel you cross the line What goes up will surely fall and I'm counting down the time 'Cause I've had so many standoffs with you It's about as much as I can stand So I'm waiting 'til the upper hand is mine One minute you're on top The next you're not, watch it drop Making your heart stop Just before you hit the floor One minute you're on top The next you're not, missed your shot Making your heart stop You think you've won And then it's all gone And then it's all gone And then it's all gone And then it's all gone Now it's all gone I know I'll never trust a single thing you say You knew your lies would divide us but you lied anyway And all the lies have got you floating up above us all But what goes up has got to fall One minute you're on top The next you're not, watch it drop Making your heart stop Just before you hit the floor One minute you're on top The next you're not, missed your shot Making your heart stop You think you've won And then it's all gone And then it's all gone And then it's all gone And then it's all gone Now it's all gone

To create life, just to watch it slip from your hands Not through death, but through the hands of your fellow man A twisted curse brought on by the seductive power of greed I didn't deserve this wretched fate Wishing things were different, wishing things were great But you knew exactly from the start what it would take To break me down, leaving me lost and weak I will never forgive you, for all the things you've done Let this be a reminder, as if you needed one I hate all that you are, and one day she will too When she learns all that you put her father through You lied through your teeth (trying to be the victim) A brainwashing machine (how fucking dare you) When will you see? (when it's too late) That all you've done is create a gap between A dad and his child that never should have fucking been there Instilled in her problems no child at her age should even fucking have Was it all worth it just to keep her the fuck away from me And ruining her bright mind for years to come I will never forgive you, for all the things you've done Let this be a reminder, as if you needed one I hate all that you are, and one day she will too When she learns all that you put her father through We will never forgive you. NEVER.

Spare me your fallacy, after the grave there is nothing left. Put pen to parchment creating humanity's biggest lie So scribed in such a way as to easily control the mind Our race has surpassed the need for a fruitless fairy tale We're own our on now your worthless god has abandoned his throne If I could reach to the heavens I would pull him down And drain all of his sacred blood On the book you hold so dear Written in exiled depravity Casting all reason and logic aside Creating a false security as We are dying from Eternal Life Blood of Christ On my Hands, this is Murder Taylor's Part Written in exiled depravity Casting all reason and logic aside Creating a false security as We are dying from Eternal Life I'll drag your fucking god down with me to hell

How do you go through life where you're infected with a curse That turns all your actions and thoughts towards the worst A concord of misery, a demonic cacophony, A choir of voices risen from the dead They speak in tongues But tell me I'm the one To perform the evil deeds Hidden inside I've struggled all my life To suppress them in my mind No longer can they hide It's about time that My demons and I, bring hell on the world A tortured soul who's sanity has been hurled Straight into the fires of hell, there is no return We will watch this whole fucking world burn They speak of murder and such inexplicable things, It's a wonder I've been able to quell them this long But as each day passes I fear I fall farther into their grasp Who will save me when I lose my fucking mind (Will I save me before they take control? Or will I bring pain and death to all I know?) They spoke in tongues And now the deed is done The blood spilled on the ground Is not my own Ad mortem Qui stabit coram mihi Indignus populus Parare planetae terrae My demons and I, bring hell on the world A tortured soul who's sanity has been hurled Straight into the fires of hell, there is no return We will watch this whole fucking world burn Yeah this while fucking world will burn. At the hands I call my own I can not escape my fate It is time to be afraid Of my demons and I

Drain the blood from my wrists Or maybe from a hole in my head I can't stand the constant thoughts of never being good enough Or just wishing that I was fucking dead My soul aches from the burdening weight of my flesh Maybe this entire bottle of pills will give my mind a rest There's no salvation in sight There's a monster in my head, bringing unto me permanent night A plague that sows it's poison deep my mind starts to unmend With each breath I take I'm drawn closer to my end Closer to my end Closer to my end Looking back to all the days I thought I could be saved What a fallacy. (The truth is) I am not worth saving (A tired soul) who's lost his craving (Let the earth) drink all of my blood, and forget this wasted flesh There's no salvation in sight There's a monster in my head, bringing unto me permanent night May these last few moments of respite bring solace to my friends I embrace the fact I am nothing and welcome in my end I welcome in my end I never asked for all this. I was never given a choice Pain and suffering is the only constant in this journey to pretend that we are all smiling and happy just to be When the darkness comes, the truth sinks in and we are all alone I've found that in giving up my life, I've found my perfect home.